Awareness

March 2, 2021 at 4:15 pm (health, love, marriage, self image)
Tags: acceptance, actions, awareness, clarity

Every day I become more aware of how my environment effects my mental state. Work feels like a war zone. The mask battle between myself and my office mates seems to never end. And I don’t see it getting better as the summer begins. I am aware how that effects my home life. How it blends into my self image. And my marriage. I am in a loop of emotions. I feel old and unattractive. I finally understand how my sensuality and sexuality is feed by my partner. How I am so afraid of old issues that I go into shut down mode. I am working on it. Awareness is the beginning of every battle. One day one breath one moment at a time.